I am an emotional basket case. Yet the truth remains the same: GOD IS GOOD
ALL THE TIME, ALL the time GOD is GOOD!
And as much as I want to throw myself a pity party, I can’t. I am healthier than many, I have options to
take care of this abdominal mass, and bottom line, it could be so much
worse. So for that, I am thankful to be
where I am at. I trust the Lord. I just want answers faster, I want this mass
dealt with and done. I, I, I...I am being pretty selfish.
My pastor’s wife has been battling brain cancer for over a
year. She has been very sick at times,
in pain, fighting this fight hard and giving glory to the Lord through it. A dear friend of mine, only 30 years, old
passed away two short weeks ago...HIS family is mourning the loss of a dear
son, brother, husband and friend. WHAT
do I really have to whine about? Instead
of crying tears of frustration for myself, wishing the waiting was over and
this mass was removed. I can’t cry for
myself as much as I want to because of others close to be in GREATER pain and
frustration. I cry tears of gratefulness
that my abdominal mass can be treated, can be removed and life for ME, should
go back to normal fairly quickly. NOT
the case for Tami. NOT the case for
Paul’s family. Tami lives day TO
day. She has been so thankful for this
year she has been given, but no one really knows the Lord’s timing. Paul’s family lived life to the fullest
too. Enjoying every moment they had with
Paul, and yet now, all too soon he was called home to the Father and they are
missing their son. Life is ever
changing. The Lord sends things into our lives for a reason, I fully believe
that. He doesn’t make mistakes. His timing is PERFECT. He is not surprised by these
circumstances. What He asks for is the
glory. That HE be praised in the tough
moments and on the mountain tops.
With that said, that is why I can’t throw myself a pit
party. That is why I can’t invite you to
join my pity party. Where is the glory
for the Lord in that? That puts the
focus on me, which is the very thing I attempt to overcome...die to self, that
I would whole heartedly follow Christ in all I am, in all I say, and ALL I
do. So, I praise the Lord for today. A
day to give glory to HIM in everything.
I pray for my sister Tami fighting her fight gloriously. I pray for my
dear siblings in Christ, as they mourn and celebrate the life of Paul. My heart
hurts for both stories, because I can’t imagine their task...I can’t, but I can
pray for them, love them, encourage them, support them and learn from
them...because their lives and stories SHINE JESUS through and through. They live that Christ would be known...and
THAT is beautiful!
So today, my tears are mixed emotions, but bottom line these
tears are tears of Joy, that the Lord is in control, and HE so tenderly holds
EACH one of us in the palm of HIS hands!
i love HIM. i LOVE Him. I love Him.
I LOVE HIM!
